Oceans

 Two big panels that used to hang over my couch. They're about 2.5 by 5 feet each. You can see the 2 separate panels. I was really into color blends then - not like my usual stuff.

Just roll with it

So here's life right now-
I am over 70k in student loan debt and that scares the crap out of me.
I have a master's degree in teaching but I don't know if I really want to teach. (I don't know if I have the patience and secretly I'm afraid of that kind of responsibility) but I have no other job skills.
I'm substitute teaching because I can't find a job and it's horrible.
I live with my fiance and love him to death but he is basically supporting me and I feel weird about that. ( I don't like to rely on anyone that much.)
I want a career in art. Sometimes I have these uncontrollable urges to create and then I don't and then I get depressed because I know I'm very talented.
I'm thinking of going back to school to study graphic design but I feel stupid for getting a master's degree that I don't want to use, nevermind going back for more.
Most of the time I feel stupid and unable to get out in words what I need to say.
Is everyone else that I know so much more successful and settled in their lives than I am? Is the "there" so much better than the "here"? I want to be more appreciative of what I have but I can't shake it.